lost within my own reality

What is the meaning of irresponsible?It all depends on one's perception of irresponsible.How deep can the meaning of irresponsible means.Example:Basic politeness to take care of people's things.Agree.But when done wrong and the person makes up for it....is that person still called irresponsible?She's responsible enough to replace the things.Make up for it.Forgive and forget...even if you dun wanna forgive...dun make a ballyhoo out of it.This is one example.Now another one.Does giving away one's privacy an act of irresponsibility of a person?Remember,when a person tells you something it means that person has full trust in you...especially when it is a private matter.So now you tell me....what does the word irresponsible really means?

Some of us think that life really sucks with all the problems you're facing.You think you're all alone.Well,you're not!Life has its own ups and downs...financial difficulties,your ex-boyfriends or girlfriends,your friends...and many others.You sound as though you're facing the worst experiences in your life.Well,you're wrong!!There are people who faces much more life threatening situations,deaths...lost of someone you love.Frankly,noone would understand whats your "real" feelinngs are but don't sound as though you're facing the worst experiences in your life.Never!Be glad that you're still living in this world...given an opportunity to explore and learn from mistakes and gradually...you'll be able to make it thru.Sometimes having problems have its good points also.You learn,become more aware,makes you wiser and makes your skin a little bit thicker as well.Not all bad things/problems will result into other bad things...you have to understand why this is happening.Ask yourself,"Is this God's way of making myself succumb to greater things in life....thru suffering first?"I dun know the answer but I do know that things happen for a reason.They always do.So have faith in yourself!!

"There is little room for wisdom when one is full of judgement."Everyone has their own eyes to see other people's true colours...you judge them by your own credit and not by others.Judge on the credit on what you know...the full story or watever and not by a one-sided story.You dun go around telling people what this person is like and make up whatever shit about them.That person has the ability to "think" on their own.They have their own eyes.Then again,if you dun know that person...dun judge them coz you dun know wat the hell is going on and say nasty things about them .(You are forgiven coz...you dun know the truth.BOOHOO!)Each of us has our own beauty.The good side of the person.Nobody is perfect.It takes a person that have a little wisdom in them not to judge too much...always see the positive point of views and not the negative side.People in this world always pick on you on your bad points and not good points...this is the start of all the misery,cruelty and dishonesty in people.It sucks to know that people do exist in your life.They say expect the least unexpected....I now know what it means.It means knowing that people out there are out to get back at you...just waiting to find your fault and choose to pursue the matter even if it is none of their business and it has got nothing to do with them.It means expect the devilish deeds from someone you know...even close to you.Then again...its your life...your decisions and just see where it leads you to.If you've made the wrong decisions...suffer the consequences.And then you start to think..."I dun deserve this".So should I feel the same way?Maybe the least humane thing you could do is ask yourself this,"Is this God's way of making myself succumb to greater things in life?What am I trying to achieve here by doing this?"Are you trying to get support?Are you just simply trying to share the whole world about your life?Well...its your life...its your blog.But be careful of what you write...cause indirectly you're selling your own soul...people's privacy.You're telling others that the word "coinfidencial" means nothing to you.You can write whatever you want..you have the right.But do you have the right to share other people's difficulties in a relationship or whatever things that are to be kept privately?Lastly...would you share whether you have lost your virginity online?Think about it.Go reflect on it.

Gosh....long day for me!!Hm....went to arab street yesterday with all my dear friends!!My 3 good friends(Dust,Sam & May) and my school dears like Addy,Jai...blah blah...Its kinda cool that two grp friends of mine can get along.Oh,we went to this Sungei Rd...near Bugis.You know....where they sell all the junk stuff...those old looking people...making some sort of a living for themselves...selling their old stuff...fan,hp chargers...you name it, they got it!!Shesha was great fun man!!Great for people who dun smoke!!Its kinda like smoking but this...its got flavor!!!Strawberry,vanilla,mint...lots of fruity flavor.But I tell you...its damn tiring to "Shisha"!!Too much sucking involved!!Oooo....I've go comments like I'm a GOOD SUCKER!!!haha...well.....we'll see who the lucky fella is...haha....gosh sick sick !!!haha--Oh...thanks to JAckie,Dust and Sam...for their time for our routine late nite ride!!!haha...we went to Geylang ....to....EAT DURIANS!!!Hm....heaty stuff I tell you.In fact,I'm feeling feverish now...haha.Oh,and I wanted to see "Gals making a "living" " there...so my friend drove ard Geylang...gosh the women there are so....no words to describe such people...but it kinda saddens me though.THINGS PEOPLE DO TO MAKE A LIVING!!Its just so wrong!!Hopefully,I pray that they will realise doing such stuff like selling "yourself" is such a sinful deed.Anyway...I'll continue more later when the sun rises coz its just so damn difficult to type quietly!!Ciao...

Woohoo!!!I've finally started studying...gosh...major achievement for me!!For once!!!haha. Let's see...today went to starbucks to study with my friend. She was suppose to study but she got distracted easily and went off talking with other people.Hm....and she kept apologising everytime she comes back and sit with me. My dear....if you're reading this...no need to apologise.I'm not angry.The exams result is in your hands not mine....hehe. I believe that if you set a goal for yourself and follow it...you be a okay!!!DETERMINATION AND CONCENTRATION is the main thing!I know.....it is very seldom you guys see me so so so hardworking but its EXAM lei....must do well!!!I know some of you will be "Yeah rite...you study so early?Dun think so..."Well,I'll PROVE YOU WRONG!!haha So to those of you who have not opened and started reading all your lectures...please do so...you dun wanna be left behind repeating the same old thing rite....this is my advise and there is no sarcasm intended."Shut the fuck up!!"I know some of you will be like...."Yeah yeah...to think these words coming out from her!"WEll,its my biz!!!This is my blog!!!haha...I can say watever I want but its the truth!!!START STUDYING!!!--Oh to all those sarcastic people out there....I dun give a fuck about your sarcasm coz its useless to me...BOOHOO to you also!!K...gtg...See ya!!

Trying to figure out how to put the tag board in...this is so complicating!

Today,I had this funny feeling that I'm gonna get some horny messages from one of my friends.And guess wat? I did!!Haha....from a horny bastard...no names mentioned.Gosh...to think every monday,people got monday blues. But this friend of mine...I think its Horny mondays for him.Okay okay...this is lame.Startin to bore me also. Well....lets see,oh oh....last nite,my mum was reading my dad's email...together lah.To my surprise...they were actually looking a some porn pics!I was like..."Gosh...you guys are damn sick!"lol...My dad started laughing out loud...humiliated that both he and my mum got caught red-handed!!So...now I know why I'm so "open-minded"!haha Oh well...I've yet to study for my PQM test tomorrow.I thought the test was due this friday...but its tomorrow!!!So retarded!!The thing is...I don't have this urgency feeling to prepare for my tests or the up coming exams!!Shag!!!What is wrong with me??Damn...I've yet to finsh the film for my photography...actually its my friend's!Oh...announcement!! Photography is my new hobby!!!Damn relaxing man...kinda put my mind off things!!Any of you so confident of yourself..let me know...coz I wanna take a pic of naked people!!!hehe...Eh,today's entry so lame...boring sia!!!Sorry ah...my mind cannot come out with anything to bitch!!Maybe tonite can...hopefully ah....

Just a reminder to myself and to you guys reading: "Dun sweat the small stuff,coz it's just small stuff!"Meaning....do not make big ballyhoo(fuss) over small matters. Coz,I've learnt that its not important to do so and it ain't worth my time and effort!And you never know...more troubles will be on your way!So what do I do?Just WALK AWAY!!Yes...just walk away...sway your hands...left right...your butt...left right...haha

I'm pretty sure some of you out there has friends who are big talkers.Talk big but nothing come out of it. Aren't you sick and tired about hearing them brag and brag and brag...more like drag and drag and drag for us! His/Her braging won't go anywhere...just for some repeat telecast(repeated things to say).I've got tons of people who are like that.....whether they are my colleague,friends or foes...my ear drums will have to tolerate their crappy nonsense.Depending on a situation,I dun bother too much what they are bragging about. But if some big talker come and irritate me...well,this I have to say to you:You're still just a little boy in an adult's body!Thinks you're so cute ,so coy?(NOT!!) You must talk so big to make up for the smaller things!So...the bottom line is QUIT BRAGGING COZ ITS IRRITATING TO EVERYONE!Now now...calling me a bitch cause I speak what's on my mind?So be it!!That's just me!BooHOO!!!At least I'm not living in denial!!

These past two days has been hard for me.Really!Anyway,just to let some of you know ....all will be okay.Dun worry about me.Just a BIG thanks to all those who are always there for me.Thanks to Nana,May,Sam and Dust...you guys are just the greatest. Each of you has helped me alot,one way or another....and I've learnt some things from you guys.Though we may not know each other long enough....I still think time doesn't matter as long as we're there for each other in times of need.To me, true friends are gifts not easily gained but it roots from one's heart and involves memories that stay...not for a moment and not for a day....but as long as I know...you're there for me and I'm there for you.Oh....do you guys think I bother to much?About people who are out to irritate you and etc.Well, lets just say I do bother too much and think too much at times. Some does frustrate me and make me think why they're like that.Well,I just like to think.The bottom line is...I am not some idiot who want to make myself angry.Am not easily worked up and seldom anyway. I always "THINK" to find the answers.But of course not everyone or everything has answers.Some things out there are just unexplainable.My friend always tell me,"Next time dun bother about them.Just fuck care!"Well,you're rite.They not worth my anger and care.BUT,thats my nature...I care,bother about people whom I know under appreciate me for all the time and effort given.Yes...they might at times dun deserve it but I always feel that somehow,if I help them in any mean ways I can...I feel that ,"Oh,at least I tried!"So Sam,thanks for reminding me!I am aware of that myself....dun worry...I will spend some quality time for myself and not bother you...hehe.Dust....you're such a sweetheart.Anytime...even in the wee hours...you trouble yourself to meet me and talk.Such a great friend you both (incl. Sam) have been. May,Nana...I love you!!!haha oh...to the rest as well.

You guys by now, would realise that my hairstyles and hair condition is the most important thing...besides my butt lah...hehe.Here's some tips to those SNOWY heads out there:When you wash your head,SCRUB it!!!Use head and shoulders!!Such a turn off you know...to boys and girls!!!Mark my words...TURN OFF!!Oh....please dun be so ignorant like some fatty bastards out there and take my advise!!!Take care...hope to see you in good HAIR conditions!!haha...note to my dear R***T!!!haha...BOOHOO!!!!

"Waited long time for this...it just feels right now!Allow me to introduce myself. I want you to come in here and read/meet the real me.I want you to get to know me a little better. Firstly, Sorry you can't define me. Sorry I break the mold.(of a normal gal). Sorry that I speak my mind. Sorry don;t do what I'm told. Sorry if I don't fake it. Sorry I come too real..BUT I will never hide what I really feel!!No way oh.....So here it is...NO HYPE, NO GLASS, NO PRETENSE. JUST ME, HERA.(LET'S START!)

How was your day?I'm was happy, horny as usual!!hahaAnyway....LET the TRUTH be known!!Firstly,before I start bitching in here ...just wanna say that watever I write in here is purely my "mean"
thoughts...passing thoughts...experiences...what i think of the people ard me and lots lots more. So dun take it too hard if i happen to write abt you or...whatever lah!!This is just ME!!!--"

I was on my way home from work when my bus slowed down ard the Bedok Res. area...there was an accident. Unlucky me...today , I chose a seat just next to the exit.It wasn't a serious accident though...involve between a motor cyclist and a car I guess...so anyway,the KEPOH me chose to see what going on.I saw this old guy in his mid forties...sitting in the middle of the road..Blood flowing down his lips..and I think he broke his ankle or something.Now,it may not seem serious to you but gosh....the look on his face....Ee...I feel like puking!!!Such a pitiful but yet scary sight!I know there are worst accident that some of you might have seen before but what I saw today is way enough for me! I feel sick!!Anyway,lets pray that he will be alrite. Note to all my riding friends--"You guys please be careful when you ride!!PLEASE PLeASE be very very careful!!Dun wanna see anything bad happen to all my dearies!!Love you guys lots!!"So,I gotta eat my dinner now.To be continued......

Thanks to the blogger genius...(Eun),finally I can start writing!I'm working it!!Anyway,no monday blues for me...except it was horny blues instead!haha.So,today was the first time I see my dear May blow UP!!!Honest!!Man....not a good sight.Thats beside the point...you know, each human being have its own limits.. in patience and taking all those fucking crap from your friends. But it comes to a point when ENUFF is ENUFF!!"I can't take it anymore!!!!"So....we BLEW out!!That's what happening here....in this world you meet different kind of people....good or bad...they are still your friends.The best is to talk it out with those idiots who are out to irritate you and make your life miserable...taking you for granted!!Yes...I admit alot of this kind of people do exist in my life....but I dun give a fuck about them because they are not worth my anger and misery!! So to all those people out there...if you know what the hell you doing to me..."FUCK YOU!!" Stop trying to rub my backside coz it ain't working!!!haha Try Harder ya....You see, my patience has limits...so remember that each time you irritate me...your numbers of my patience are running low...SO BEWARE!!!Coz I can...**** anytime when I feel like it!!--Never take people for granted! Never!!ciao...dunno what the hell I'm trying to conclude here...when i can think properly...I'll start writing again!!

Damn it!!! This is getting on my nerves!!Why isn't this bloody blogger work!!!Work it!!!Gosh...I need a glass of water!!!

Hey!My first time on blog!!Mind getting bloggy already....Hm...Lesson #1, read the intructions first!!Hope what ever I'm gonna write will be posted!!Ya know...I have no idea what the hell I am doing!! What more...why I decide to sign up as one of the bloggers!!Anyway....I have this feeling its going to be a fun and wacky meany ride for me!!This page is gonna be my FREEDOM TO SAY WATEVER I THINK!Now now... let's see if this paragraph will come out before I start bitching!!Here goes.....