lost within my own reality

I spent almost half of the day attending my final theory lesson and the revision classes!I dun't know what drives me to keep pushing myself to pass my final theory exams soon...hm...maybe the idea of driving to sch everyday...having my own vechicle...I guess I'm yearning for convenience!And also...I guess to fulfill my granny's hopes of me driving during Hari Raya.So that she can brag and be proud of her grand daughter's achievements!!haha...Nevertherless, it's going to be a long long tiring process before I can just sit and be the woman behind the wheel!!hehe...I know some of my friends are just dying for me to get my license but my dear dearies,my practical only starts in Sept. I'll try to put in lots of effort and get my license ASAP!!Yup...soon ya.....you'll be in my Honda Fit!!haha...thats what my parents gonna get I think.Actually...it won't be exactly mine mine...but my dad told me that once I get my license..I'll be the one driving!!!Woohoo!!Gosh...I just can't wait any longer!!Its driving me crazy!!!haha...yeah rite!

Now now...dun get all too excited abt this topic.2 of my friends and I were making our way to the YCK mrt when one of them said, "Eh Hera,is my breast smaller?"--not the exact words but something like that. So anyway, I said, "Ya..." followed by my incorrigible laughter!!Me and the other friend can't help it but to keep staring at her tits!!I mean...gosh...hers was like BOMB man...and suddenly its....??I thought...man..this can't be happening!!haha..I told her.."Eh..I think mine is at least getting bigger..."So anyway,the thing is...how did it get into that stage?After boarding the train,the two of us(tits and me) were contemplating on the question "How come?"Yep...frankly,isn't it rare to see or hear someone else's tits has shrunk?Puzzling isn't it?So anyway,after both of us separated at Chinatown,'tits' went to meet her friend.I guess on the way..she was still trying to find the answer to her mysterious shrunken breast!!haha
Soon,she found the answer.Let the truth be told...this was the theory given by her friend.The cause of her pathetic condition was due to too much drinking.Yep...it made her stomach bloated thus her breast to shrink.Is this for real?I have no idea...but it will always remain a mystery to me.

Whoa....I was reading my Eun's blog...and had a really good laugh abt her story on this pervert she encountered recently!Man...he's so twisted!!haha
Actually...I'm kinda miss those spooky yet hilarious moments!haha Well anyway...I guess he was born with a twisted brain...in fact he looks like the cartoon character "Pinky and the Brain"...he's the brain!He's head real big man...not proportionate...hm...that explains the twisted brain and twisted thoughts!!!Twisted!!Wonder if his little bro is twisted as well...haha.Okay okay...this blog is getting sick!!haha
So...I was having breakfast with my friend...he was stuffing his big filthy mouth with pancakes and was staring at me. When he realises that...I looked like a pig!He said..."Eh...you know what?You look like a pig!"Yup...that's wat the bastard said to me. Thank you very much!I guess he's pretty childish!!I'm pretty sure that some my fans out there have seen me put on little pound....sinful pounds!!haha....kinda demoralising to hear it...but I couldn't careless.In fact...I like to take this opportunity to thank my friend for saying that to me. So here it is...my new semester resoluion:I'm gonna start going to the gym...well hopefully.And start taking my pill...bowel dificulty la...the thing is...so matter how much veggie i eat..I can't seem to ...ya know. My mission : To make all those who said I was fatt feel...that they're fat themselves!!!haha...yup...Hey Gian!!!haha

Shit...after days of anticipation,I've finally get to see the freshies!!haha...actually there WASN"T any anticipation at all.Why would I be?My guess was the freshies will be 'retarded and innocent'!!haha...Seriously....have any of you seen the freshies?The minahs and mats?YUCK YUCK YUCK!!Here I am typing my entry and a FAKE J.LO wannabe is staring at me!"What the hell is your problem bitch??"haha...Oh please...quit trying too hard to please...too hard to attract cause it ain't working!!haha...Whoa...I am mean!!!haha.So will you readers give me your comments on the freshies!?!? I bet you wanna strip your thoughts abt the freshies...I know you wanna...haha.Oh god...next to me got 1 "MUNGENT"..."fuck!I think he never bath!!!"(I'm in sch lab now waiting for my dear deng deng(nana) for lunch)Ish!!!Smelly boy!!haha...K I gotta go now...the smell giving me a headache!!"Somebody help me!!!"

Ya know...when my low mood takes charge, I remind myself that I am in a bad mood and tend to think negative. By doing this,slowly time will pass and my mood changes.It is not easy but it is an unavoidable human condition that will pass with time.Just relax and don't think too much.In fact,I think our moods can be extremly deceptive. They can and probably do trick us into believing that our life is far worse then it is. A low mood is not the time to analyze your life. To do so is emotional suicide. Think about it...your problem will still exist even when your state of mind improves. Would you rather think with a clear mind(when in gd mood) or troubled mind(when in low mood)?Quit being miserable and wasting all your good moods.
" BE grateful of good moods and graceful with low moods."

So the next time you are feeling low for whatever reason, remind yourself, "This too shall pass." It will.

I was out with my girlfriend just chilling...catching up with things.Sadly, she wasn't really in a good mood when I met her. And believe me..nobody can stand it when one is in a bad mood. They tend to take things personally and misinterpret everthing around them. As they impute malignant motive into our motives. In the end, they're the ones who is creating our bad moods as well...which of course was undeserving and unneccessary. So in order not to get "pissed" by her,I said "Shut up!Your mood is running you!" Now now...I know its kinda rude but I really can't stand people who thinks their life is so fucked up when the truth is, it isn't. They're just making a big ballyhoo out of it!

Let's look it this way: When you are in a good mood,life looks great. You have good perspective, common sense and wisdom. In good moods, things don't feel so hard, problems seem less formidable and easier...everything seems to go with a flow. And communications seems easy.If you are criticized, you take it in stride and not be bothered by it. As for me...I take it as a compliment.On certain things...you have to be thick-skinned.

On the contrary,when you are in a bad mood, life looks unbearably serious and difficult. The truth is, life is almost never as bad as it seem when you're in a low mood.So take my word if you want: Rather than staying stuck in your world of bad moods and making everyone around you miserable...snap out of it! Convince yourself that you are seeing life realistically and learn to question your judgement.

"Why have you gone into seclusion?"Yeah,some of you might ask...well,looking back on the first half of this semester,I realised that I've neglected some important people in my life.I've been too busy seeking some fun with my friends and doing other stuffs.I guess at that point of time,I have the propensity to believe that life is an emergency.As though all the fun I'm having ,I won't be able to have some 'fun' anymore.I guess it be difficult to justify my neurotic behaviour .

Everything seems so chaotic...so messed up and everyone seems to be pissing me off..even the little things!Well,we live in a messed up, chaotic but yet full of beautiful people in this world.And so...I decide to embark on my journey to seclusion...just away from the daily hectic routine,people ard me....in simple term,"The real world".

Now,you may think that seclusion is boring.Well its not!I allowed myself to be bored...I didn't have to think what is the next task I have to do,who I have to please....just being relax!A friend of mine asked,"What do you do during seclusion?"Well,NOTHING!You see,the beauty of doing nothing is that it teaches you to clear your mind and relax.It allows your mind the freedom to "not know" for a brief period of time.I chose seclusion because I wanted to be in complete solitude...truth is,there is something rejuvenating and peaceful about being alone.Having some time to reflect,do the things you simply missed doing and simply enjoy the quiet.I guess a little quiet time to yourself,virtually everyday is a vital part of life.At least for me...spending time alone helped me to balance the noise and confusion that infiltrate much of my day...or should I say...many many of my days.It kinda slows me down...thinking life isn't an emergency and helps me feel centered and grateful for everything.And the good part is....I've learnt to cherish those ard me.

Now now...I may sound weird to some of you but this is just me.I do this all the time,especially during my holidays!So yeah...my idea of a holiday is SOLITUDE...haha

Hey hey hey!!!I'm back....haha.Now,semester gonna start this cuming monday and I hope you guys are ready!!Those in TEP...have fun ya!haha...while I'm stuck in lectures!!haha...so I have been away for a while..reel long!In fact,seclusion is the word.I needed that!!during the holidays...great time for me to reflect and have quality time for myself.So to all my friends whom I've not been calling ..Real Sorry!I just need to be alone and away from this messed up world.Anyway,I got to go now...I need to pee.I'll be back real soon and update this new pathetic blog of mine.There's so many thing for me to say!!Take care you guys!