lost within my own reality

I was so mad yesterday when I found out that the person I've been messaging wasn't the one replying!!Its another girl....and its annoying!!He may think its funny at first...but I dun think so.I think its not nice,disrespectful...and lastly,there's no privacy.We kinda quarrelled thru smses.I was so mad that I lost my appetite to eat.And it was the last day(yesterday) that my dad was going to cook for me.Its was the last meal in the house before I move out.Sigh...Anyway...all is good. Back to normal.Met him today and pinched him real hard to let him know how much it hurts when being pissed off!!haha...he deserves my pinches!!!keke...
My dear friend...if you're reding this...you know you've stepped on my tail...and know how it felt to be bitten hard back!!haha...So I do hope you've learnt your lesson.You've made a promise!!Remember that!!
Chao.

Wats up babies!!!Been away...projects projects projects!!!Anyway, I'll be moving out from my home this Sunday. Yup...moving to Waterfront View at Bedok Reservoir!!And yeah...its facing the rservoir!!Yay!!Its so much bigger than my house man!!So spacious.2 floors...so windy!I'm so happy!!!haha..Anyway...I still haven pack my stuff yet.Alot of things to do...and also too lazy to pack!!Sigh...But hey...I just so excited.Its just gonna be me, my mum and my 2 siblings!!A little more freedom I hope...but without a doubt, more responsibilities.So yeah...its week 8 this week and 1 more week its good bye BPOS-B!!!Sigh....made a few great friends!!Wonderful people!!I'll definitely cherish them!! : p

The day has finally arrived!!Today is the day...where I really hope that I won't be making a fool of myself. I shall not scare myself. I know I can do it!!Now...if you're wondering what I'm talking about...Actually...today is the day where I will be an emcee for my E-Business Seminar.This seminar mainly for year 3 students. So you do understand why I'm kinda nervous.And the worst part is,I swear...I hate the directors's name.So difficult to pronounce!!I hate his name.(Mr V. Seshamani..more like sushimani)
I kept going thru the script again and again with val and everyone else. Though...val did help me to make some changes to the script.Thanks val!!You're the best!!
Somehow...confidence is building up...little by little. "I must have faith!!Treat everyone invinsible!!Look for a smiley face!"
"Oh...remember NOT to look at Sesh's face!!!Never!!"
Okay...Everyone wish me luck!!!
Will tell you later wat happened!!Today...So busy...so I'll try.Got deejay thing to do also...for the IT roadshow!!!Argh!!!So many things !!

Hey people...days have been tough for me. Emotionally....one minute I'm happy...and another minute...someone pisses me off!!And that my friend has been goin on for the past 5 days or so. I dun even consider that 'fine' days!I dun understand why people dun take responsibilities,consideration for others.So selfish!!Dun they understand that I've already so many things to do??Sigh...I seriously need a break from all this people!Away from the chaos!Away from backstabbers!Away from ku-niangs!!Just being away....away from a long time...seclusion.Isolation...thats my thing!I think I need that...and I hope its soon!Till then...rite now...
I've got to prepare myself for the seminar tomorrow....soooo freaking nervous.
Sheesh...I shall not torture myself.

I've seen your true colour.I've seen it all. And I now know who to beware.Yes I do know...and you think I don't. I can see it for myself...and other with an open mind too.I'm sick and tired of being taken for granted.Its gone way to far.I had enough.I had to be rude.I had to stand on my own principle and working ethnics. Yes I do. Believe me when I say this: "I gonna fuck you!"
Call me a bitch...but thats just me.A bitch.

I'm going out!!I'm going out!!!Yay yay!!LOL!!Goin to collect brochure with Mrs Lai and Val...BPOS excursion!!!haha....the BIATCH is back!!Let the 3 biatch unite!!!we shall gossip till one of us...faints??haha..Laugh till our tummy hurts...till we cry..like always!!Have fun like we always do!!Without fail!!!
See ya............Matin...if you're reading,Gonna Miss You!!

GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE!!!tODAY i WOKe Up WIf SOMe LIGHtNEss IN My hEARt...aS UsUaL,wIF A jOyFUl sPiRiT!!i GuESS i HAd A gOOd sLEEp!tHOUGH...i Do SEnSE sOME tENSIoN lATEr IN tHE dAY...mAYbE bEcAUSE i'M gOIn fOR mY dRIVINg lAtER...oH ANd i mIGHt MeET tHE bIaTcH tHATs sPOILiNg mY wHoLe kARmA. yOU sEe,i WeNT tO LiTTLe iNDiA yEStERDaY...weNT FoR sO cALLeD fORtUNE tELLiNG.tHERE'S tHIS LiTTLe pARRRoT IN tHE cAGE RItE...aLL i hAVE tO dO Is To sAY mY NAME oUT.tHEN tHE fORtUNe tELLeR WiLL oPeN THe cAGE Up.tHE pArrrOT WaLKS OUt aND pICk a CARd. iN tHE caRD,It sTATEs mY pRESENt sTAtE Of MInd ANd rOUgHLy waTS gOiNg On In mY LifE. iTS sAYS tHAT i hAVE tO Be mINDFUL,cAREfUL Of pEoPlE ArOUNd mE AnD tO tHINK bEFORe i TALk....(i TOOK iT tWiCE..kinda Sums The Both Card up).In tHe cARd,iTs sHOwS tHe goD mURUgAN AND tHIS GOd wITH lOTS Of hANDs ON a tIgER. i DUN rEALLY kNOW wAT tHeSe gODS rePREsENTS...sO rITe nOW...i'M wAItING fOR niCKy tO tELL mE lAtER.

aFtER tHAT,mY mUM aSKeD mE iF i HAd aNY eNEmY...frANKLY...no...BUT i SAiD tHAt i DO sENSe tHAT tHERe IS sOMEoNE wHO HaS bAD aTTeNTIONs aGAINsT mE.

nOW...yOU gUYs mIGhT tHInK tHAT i'M bEINg sUpERSTiTioUS aNd ALL bUT i'M jUSt bEINg pLAIN cAREfUL oF aLL tHE fUCkERS tHATs tRYiNG tO fUCK wITH mE!!!HAhA...

wAT gOEs aROUNd...cOMEs aROUNd!!yOU'll hAVE a baD kARmA !!

Been running little errands the whole day.Seems so busy.Over lunch hour...a group of us visited Nicky at Mount Alvernia.He's doing pretty okay...recovering.Though he did say, every morning, when he looks to his left, he sees himself in the mirror and thought......(private) So yeah...my dear friend had some sinus infection or something.Caused by dust and dirt from India.So we all really hope that he's doing okay and get well real soon!So he too get to suffer the fate that I'm suffering now.The noise...the noise...man...I can't take it anymore.

Its annoying...it just so bloody annoying!!Lil' cutesy...kuniang...act cute!!Oh gosh...I think they are just putting on a bloody facade!Attention-seeking people!!ARgh...can't they just bloody shut up!!Stop talking for once...please...you lil' wimps!!!Just shut up....get lost...get out of my sight!!Talk far away from me.I dun want to hear whining!!!I cannot take this noise anymore....horrendous laughters...whining....talking senseless stuff.Can't they ever talk intelligently??Just for once??They're so lame....Sigh...

Is such a pain in the ass!!REally....damn idiotic.Idiosyncracy....level...very high!!Oh...bastard kept playing wif my head!!Kept hitting my head as if its like a drum!!Bloody hell!!oops hes coming now....wonder wats he's gonna do!!hehe

P/s:Nothing better to do!!

Lionel is sickening!!!Uncool!!!Disgusting!!Irritating(said so himself)...senseless like me...idiot like me but not stupid like me!!He's really trying very hard to read some mandarin essay or something!!So pathetic!!Now he's laughing to himself!!"Win liao!"Yay I win!!!...alamak...annoying man...voice so whiny!!!

" BE grateful of good moods and graceful with low moods."
So the next time you are feeling low for whatever reason, remind yourself, "This too shall pass." It will

"There is little room for wisdom when one is full of judgement."Everyone has their own eyes to see other people's true colours...you judge them by your own credit and not by others.Judge on the credit on what you know...the full story or watever and not by a one-sided story.You dun go around telling people what this person is like and make up whatever shit about them.That person has the ability to "think" on their own.They have their own eyes.Then again,if you dun know that person...dun judge them coz you dun know wat the hell is going on and say nasty things about them .(You are forgiven coz...you dun know the truth.BOOHOO!)Each of us has our own beauty.The good side of the person.Nobody is perfect.It takes a person that have a little wisdom in them not to judge too much...always see the positive point of views and not the negative side.People in this world always pick on you on your bad points and not good points...this is the start of all the misery,cruelty and dishonesty in people.It sucks to know that people do exist in your life.They say expect the least unexpected....I now know what it means.It means knowing that people out there are out to get back at you...just waiting to find your fault and choose to pursue the matter even if it is none of their business and it has got nothing to do with them.It means expect the devilish deeds from someone you know...even close to you.
Then again...its your life...your decisions and just see where it leads you to.If you've made the wrong decisions...suffer the consequences.And then you start to think..."I dun deserve this".So should I feel the same way?Maybe the least humane thing you could do is ask yourself this,"Is this God's way of making myself succumb to greater things in life?What am I trying to achieve here by doing this?"Are you trying to get support?Are you just simply trying to share the whole world about your life?Well...its your life....But be careful of what you say cause
indirectly you're selling your own soul...people's privacy.You're telling others that the word "coinfidencial" means nothing to you.You can write whatever you want..you have the right.
Go reflect on it!

This goes out to all those who has the need to voice out their opinion abt me!!Seriously...its your choice if you wanna brainwash others...that I'm this and that.For your bloody info...you know no shit abt me!!!So you can bloody well shut up!!But then again....its your choice. If you're gonna do that...that says something abt you doesn't it?And people have their own judgement!They can judge by themselves and need no people like you!!
What do you get in return?Sympathy???
Support??If thats wat you're looking for by doing wateva you did...or do...its your bloody problem.Because at the end of the day,I will still make new wonderful friends and people who still loves me even though we've been thru thick and thin.I DUN need people like you in my life.Get a life!!Please!!I dun need you...I dun have time for people like you whose only purpose in life is to critize abt others and get really pissed off wen being rebarked back!If you're not that thick-skinned...I'm sure you know who you are!So from now on...do wateva you wish!Because I think...one sweet day...you'll get your retribution!!hah!!
That's all I have to say!!So I wish you peace and hope...and wisdom!!May god bless you!!