lost within my own reality

On Sunday morning...my mother told me that I am sick because my night is my day and my day is my night.Look at the fucking time...and guess wat?I think she is right.I just dun feel like sleeping..and when I do..I sleep like there's no tmr.Which I think is fine by me..I serious need a proper slp.I mean..not that I dun get a proper sleep..I do sleep..I mean a sleep that makes you feel darn good that you had a satisfactory and happy sleep.Get it?If you dun...fuck it cause here I am rambling away about sleep at 5 freaking am plus!!Oh yeah..I was told that "we"..the dysfunctional family will be making a trip to Genting highland over the weekend.I dun feel like going..I feel like this holiday that my mum is planning..is just for the sake of going on a holiday...get it?Its unneccessary...because a holiday ..its suppose to be long and relaxing and not rushing.Hm...but come to think of it..if we could drop by KL..I could meet Matin for a while.haha..shop at Time Square.And I've heard that the amusement at Genting has changed...heard there's a free fall ride..I think I need some insane rides in my life.Life is insane already..so why not make it more insane...rite Nicole??hehe...

Matin just messaged me at 2am just now..said that it's MERDEKA day and that he is half drunk and realised how much he misses us.GOtta convey the message to Lutfi...he's in camp...being a national slave..or so they say.I think its good that guys made to go for NS and be a real man and develope moral,discipline and lots of stories to share and tell to their grandchildren when they're old.

::Hera is talking nonsense now...she's losing her mind.She needs her rest now.All she could think about now is WICKED AURA BATUCADA and WOMAD's pictures!Cant wait cant wait!!Hera is off to bed now.Good nite for Hera and all those who are awake at this very moment and good day to all who's gonna wake up later and start envying me for I Hera get to slp all thru the day !!!eahahaha....madness...madness..

WOMAD was a blast!!Went there with Hanis,Jai and Mel.Had lots of fun..dancing and sweating altogether.."main darah" and being wild!!wahahah.Temple of Sound was awesome...so was Talving Singh.He was the last act for the nite...he was the special guest for the gala performance!!Superb I tell you!!

OKay..Wicked Aura Batucada...the local act was ROCKING the stage man!!I love them...i seriously do!!The drummers...most were cute..hm..let me recall the guys I thought that were cute.haha.I thought the mohawk french dude Aiden was damn cute!!He looks damn bloody sexy sweating!!haha...Oh yeah...and I find Hanafi SEXY and handsome!!!Damn..he reminds me of someone...hehe...
::Wicked Aura Batucada

Caught Al-Bedouin Middle Eastern Music Ensemble...another local act and belly dance by this fat lady...which I have to say...can really belly danbce.I mean...seriously...she makes being fat sexy!!YEs...you're hearing it from me...I'm serious.And boy can she really shake her belly...her costume were damn nice man!!Sexy!!

Oh yeah..Daara J..grp of trio...and they play Senegalese hip-hop,raga...RnB and Cuban music.They made the night happening wild ball of fire I tell you!!Dance like mad...sweat like mad!!Their music...just so different frm wat you hear on the radio.Imagine...world music and hip-hop alike together!!Its madness!!

I wore a MArdi Gras costume!!hehe...paid $5 for it and took a polaroid pic!!haha...I decided to wear the costume...despite knowing the fact that exposing my unshaven legs would bring me shame!!wahahaha.But eh...the photo turned out great okay!!Really artistic!!I swear...and cannot see any hair if thats wat you're thinking when I said really artistic!!wahaahah.

The food was good too!Sheperd Pie..brownies..buffao wings..kebabs!!So yummy yummy yummy!!Oh yeah...I wanted to go for an aura reading which cost like $20...I would have gone but I needed the cash for my Sentosa trip later...hehe.

So yeah...WOMAD was..WOah...MADness!!I dun regret goin...and I am so looking forward to next year!!Definitely not goin to miss it for the world music and cultures ard the world!!I just love it!

Called Matin when Talvin Singh was playing.Told him that I was at WOMAD and he cursed me like hell...he came out with all the vulgarities he could think of..hated me!Eh MATIN...you should have been at WOMAD..but too bad..you're in the CAPITAL of MATS and MINAH...in KL!!wahaahahha...hating me now aren't you!!You missed Talvin and the temple of sound!!I know how much you love them..how you're dying to catch them perform live!!wahahaha...but you know I still love you!! ;)Next year aite??I'll let you know in advance so you know when you can make a short trip back here to catch WOMAD 2005!

::Took lotsa pic!!Gonna post it as soon as Jai Belo finds time to send me the file!!Can't wait for the pics man!!Seriously...Can't wait!!

You choose who you wanna be.How you wanna feel.The choice you make,there might be consequences.But when you know what you're feeling isn't making you happier or being in a situation where it gives you the continuous lousy feeling,why continue on the same path and expect changes when you jolly well know that watever changes you expect is inevitable?Why hurt yourself more?Why are you still on the same road you're on?Hm...girls..I really dunno wat to say la.Its your choice and only you can make the decision on anything and everything.It hurts seeing you girls hurting...fighting a losing battle.But nothing I can do when its just the same old thing...I've said what I've said to you before...or have I?Wateva it is...I can only listen but nothing more I can do to make you feel happier and light hearted.I can only guide and influence but the rest its up to you.

Its your choice.
Your path...your road.

Hugs to everyone!!

Spell to attract men

I conjure thee
I conjure thee
I'm the Queen you're the bee
As I desire so shall it be

::I can't help it..I love the show!

Like watching CHARMED??
How about playing a CHARMED GAME?
Quite easy and fun to play!
I wanna PLAY!

You guys should check out this guy's site!
Whack,wicked and lame pictures!Some funny,some not.But definitely kills your boredom.

Oh yeah...check out his Adventure Edition too!Quite funny!!Here's one.
Eric's Bar Pick-UP Adventure:Click here for the adventure!

Eric Conveys An Emotion

I've figured why I've been short tempered lately.The reason doesn't really lies at the fact that I was sick...but its that time of the month!!hehe..yeah..Typical!Again...I wondered who invented panty liners?Was it KOTEX?hm...anyways,if not for the liners...I'll probably would hv leaked my "under" clothing.So yeah..THANKS to whoever invented panty liners!!Saved my day!!wahahaha...And I now know why they call it panty liners...its shapes the panties's lining!!SAvvy invention indeed!wahahah...k lame and enuff details abt girl's stuff.I've got guys reading my entries too!

So yeah...I know I won't score for my french test today.Most question..je ne sais pas(I don't know).But confirm will pass!hehe.Felt really lazy today.Said something really lame to Terence.But I've come to a conclusion to why Ah bengs dance the way they do!!hehe..Terence said:Techno Taichi(hm..if thats how u spell it)..blah blah blah...I said:TEchno Taichi?Ah..no wonder ah bengs dance macam they doing taichi!(trying to do the moves...but failed)
I swear...Terence wanted to whack me!!muahahaha..because I just insulted him=was an ah beng now turned street-wise!!

Singapore Idol today was good.I had fun watching David singing "Karma Carmeleon" by Culture Club...he sounded retarded but still managed to look good!!The Calvin fella,one who was like wearing a cardigan...I think he's gay!hehe..I can never forget wat he said when Gurmit encouraged the viewers to vote for him,Contestant No.2.He said:"It takes 2 hands to clap!You and me!!"Lame lame lame!!
I support Jeassea Thyidor,Olinda and the Beng guy..forgot his name!!I love Jeas's presence and Olinda's passion!
Can't wait for next week's show.The Malay guy..I think he's quite cute and Christopher Michael...darn cute!!wahahaha...hm...at least there's still decent cute looking guys ard...there aren't many actually!

Term break next week.Hibernating time and work.Hm...probably gonna do some studying..really need to study my biz finance and EFMA.Gotta start writing notes for MArketing MGT and General Insurance...will save me the last minute trouble of preparing the mental notes for the exams!!Woah...seems quite a load!!Ah well...we shall see..if Hera can make it!hehe

That's all I have to say for now!

Merci!!
Au revoir!!

Big fans of Singapore Idol...do you recall a guy stripping down to his undies in the first 2 telecast?Guess wat??This dude...or dudette,Steven Lim...has got his own website!!
Check it out: The truth about Mr Lim

Anyways...thought of sharing this to you guys!hehe

2 Words...
UTTER DISGRACE!!

Okay peps...When I do have my own hse or better yet..when my mum agrees that its time for a cat to be my companion...hehe...this shall be it!!Not exactly the same...but definitely a persian flat faced cat!!Or better yet...a kitten!!

They're just so adorable aren't they?I so wanna squezze them!!haha

I'm up to mischief...hm...gonna sa boh barry!!wahahaha

Okay peps...let me give you a rough idea how one suffers from flu..Aah...Aah...stuffing tissue into ur nose...trying to stop frm sneezing...try to look cool..Aah..aah...

Aah..Aah..Choo!!This is how Barry looks like..still managed to look all suave and cool after sneezing!!hehe...I like!Oh Gawdy...he looks like a ghost!!wahahaha...right side of his face all pale!!wahahaha...

Okay...I'm not proud of wat I did...its so wrong to saboh ur lovely fren..but I know who is!!

Marcus Soh Khim Koon!!Look at his proud face la...Well done la MArcus!!Still a bitch!!wahahaha

::K hera...thats so lame!!

Nite peeps!!

The after taste of taking some flu pills and headaches...it sucks!
Bitter taste around my tongue...it makes me wanna puke.In fact,I can taste my puke at the back of my throat.Ew ew ew..............

Okay..fine...I'm bored.

Study period..wasn't good.Felt that I'm studying half way...its annoying because I just realised that the e-learn notes are actually quite important.And I can't seem to even open the e-learn now!Argh..annoying...Hm..study aside...

Oh...was trying to figure the details to the meaning of "Principle of Indemnity" for my General Insurance ...my mind went astray...

I've come up with the top 5 destinations I wanna go before I am 30 yrs old.
1)Greece
2)Maldives
3)Turkey
4)Africa
5)Spain

Oh..I just wanna say that my baby cousin,Batrishia..is so adorable!I think she's the most beautiful baby in the world!hehe..I'll post her pics pretty soon!

Sniff sniff sniff...
Still down with the flu...
Gonna study for my test tmr..sigh...

I hate this!!Its annoying!!It keeps on popping!!Who the fuck is doing this?I hate this and it annoys me to the max..the fact that each time I come in..start doin my things..it pops up!!Who is the sick bastard in the house watching porn???Its fucking annoying la..."Free Porn portal".."Russian girls play..!"

Each time I come online..there will be pop up window abt porns and stuffs.Pictures will appear..sick dirty pics I should say!Bloody hell..its keeps on popping..POP POP POP!!I'll pop the bugger's brain if I ever find out who installed or wateva did this shit!Its like a virus man...sick virus!!Argh!!To all porn webmaster!!Leave me alone!!Leave my family alone!!Yes..its dysfunctional but we dun need porn portal to make us even more dyfunctional!!eahahaahah..

K hera's mad!!
She's bored...but she's definitely annoyed!!Darn those sick pictures!!

by Three Days Grace

Everytime we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Only when I stop to think about you
I know
Only when you stop to think about me
Do you know

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me

I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

::This song rocks man!!Power!It makes you wonder...

Weekend break was boring.Stayed home the whole day...staring at the fishes,watching the guppies mating...figuring which baby guppy belongs to which guppy..blah blah blah.Had a terrible flu on Sunday..really sucked!!Decided not to go to school on Monday,reason being...I'm still having a flu and headache and I've not studied my General Insurance test.So yeah...will be taking the test on Wednesday afternoon.Hm...gives me time study.Watched Collateral with John and Marcus Soh today.Show was slow..plot was boring..very predictable.Almost fell asleep.My nose...it looks like Rudolph's nose.The doc's pills..doesn't seem to work...suppose to make me drowsy...but it ain't working.

Oh yeah...over the weekend..I watched the table tennis finals.I think the SG player..esp Li JiaWei..is an excellent player.Though she lost on the semi-finals..I still think she could have done better.I guess...luck do play a part in wateva u do.We may have lost..and not win a single medal in this year's OLYMPICS...I think Singapore did okay la...at least our imported player is World No.4 in table tennis..I guess its not that bad la.haha..

"You're a fun-loving lady!!"
I rather hear this everyday from the guys rather than my mum saying,"You're worst than a man!!"

My point being,mothers nowadays...they think they know you.But they dun!

I admit...I like boys!They're not as complicated as girls are...whether in a relationship,friendship or watsoever.But girls are very likely to stick by you through hardships!This I can say.Guys...they aren't simple either.Without a doubt...I enjoy guys company almost everytime!haha...I dunno wat point I am making...Ah well...anyway,I'm home on a Friday nite/Sat morning...not with the guys watching movie.Mummy said I can't!!Bloody hell...its fine by me!I just knew that today no date with the boys!But its okay...gonna see them later for supper.Have not taken my dinner..so yeah supper it shall be for me later.Gotta wait for them to finish movie ard 2 plus.So yeah...here I am typing away...waiting for the time to pass.haha..

Hm...lots of things to say..but I'm just lazy to type my deep thoughts!!

ciao..be back later

Weekend is here.Will be working later in the day.
Dun feel good now...think I have flu.Gonna get sick soon I guess.
Given the fact that I've not been having enough rest and sufficient sleep I deserve.
Suppose to go for this DRUM n BASS gig..got the invites.
Doubt I be goin.
Really need to take my rest on Saturday.
I shall forget about goin for some talent scouting interview.I know..WTH rite??yeah...
thats wat I've been telling myself!haha
I dun think I wanna work on Sunday,I have General Insurance test on Morning.
I shall see how my time management for Saturday...after doin the housechores.
Basically...I just hope that its gonna be a beautiful day!!
Keeping my fingers crossed that the guys dun have anything planned.
And my mum wont start on her speech on "How I am worst than a man!" Oh Gawdy!!
Hanis has asked me to go for Sheesha later after work with Jai and Mel and dunno who else also.
Contemplating if I wanna go or not.
Its gonna be fun with them too...been quite some time since I last met up with them.
I think the last time was the Bay Beats at Esplanade.
Planning to go for WOMAD next Sunday!!
Can't wait to watch Talvin Singh and The Temple of Sound!!
Denitely gonna be a blast!

I'm off to bed now.Wishing you guys a HAPPY DAY!

Work was boring..not much sales.Just doing this job for the money.It pays off my cab fares and shopping and my extra expences like movies and stuff.This week...my aim is to save up till end of the week.Meaning..today's pay...I have already deposit.Proud rite??haha...So tempting to spend it...Mango tops and pants and just going out out out with the guys!!I'm totally spoiling myself...I'm a brat!!Spoilt one!haha...I cant stop myself frm taking cab..its like being chauffeured to sch every morning!!But this definitely cant go on...my mummy better pay for my driving real soon.I be better off then.I just cant wait to get my licence.Its just the matter of time and waiting for my TP test.Then I will be able to drive to school real soon!!Argh...so many things I WANT!!Not needs...but WANTS!!

I cant seem to stay at home and do nothing.Not even studying...I'm not the kinda person who would sit and do my tutorial.Even if I did...it be a huge surprise to myself and everyone.But of course..I feel damn proud than anyone else who does their tutorial every week!!wahahahaha...I just need to go out every single day.It feels weird reaching home before dark.Its just all so weird...I'll could die of boredom if not for the internet!!But I can't just stare at the screen the whole day could I?I'm already four-sighted...I shouldn't make it worst.Wat my eyes really needs most is to check out the cute guys around SG!!!This improves my visual even more...wahahahaha.Even if I do reach home before dark..I'll probably go out for a coffee and chill at Starbucks or Al-Ameen!!Practically..thats life for me la...Sch,work,shop,chill and have fun!!Living my own life...and dun bother about dickheads or bitches surrounding me.I just couldn't careless...for I have no time to bother abt these sickening people la.They're just not worth it.

Loving myself every single day..and you should too!!

Hugs!!

Shan..you saw that fucker??haha..He looks different??haha..I dunno la..but I dun give a shit la.haha...All Marcus the same i guess...except my Marcus Soh Khim Koon!!wahahaah..that one my darling la..and the rest of the guys too!!haha.I told you rite..that woman look like *puke*!!wahahah...anyway babe,if you feel that your relationship is not goin anywhere..you better put a fullstop to it.I dunno wat to say to you..but I hope this time..watever your actions are..better stick to it.Dun change your mind and giving another chance.There are better guys out there you know!!Its hurt..and yes you will miss his presence..no doubt but you'll get thru it.For eg:Look at me!!!wahahaha...I'm still a bitch!!Remember..you're the BITCH!!haha

Eh you 2 bitches go Chinablack on Fri huh?Nb...haha...anyway,I'm always in town on Fri midnite...see you guys in town one of these days la!

Carol:No comments.You nvr say anything in ur blog..n I dun really get to talk to u.So I ask better.haha..Hows ur love life?

Argh...I cannot stand it!!So not used to coming home early.Today is the first time in a long time that I actually came home early frm sch like 7pm.It used to be..out to town and chill..meet up with the guys and stuff like that.Today...they are all busy doin their own stuff.Argh!!And I just received a message frm Marcus..telling me that they're goin Gelare tonight ard 9plus.So tempted to go out sia...but its kinda late to leave home.Argh!!If John were home,I could do my hide-out!!haha..but he's got class today..boring!!So yeah...rite now,I am still contemplating if I'm gonna go out later to join them.I just love going out with them...chilled and fun!!haha...Sigh..my darlings are just all so adorable la!!haha..

I hate it la..so tempting to go out...Gr!!!
How?How?How?
How to tell my mother...I think I better let her meet the guys again.The last time she saw them was like years back..and i doubt she can even remember their faces.haha..Damn...being a girl..its just all..hm...dunno wats the word..but stop stereotyping!!Its the 21st Century and girls do go out late and not HAVOC!!!

Anyway...wats the meaning of havoc??Can someone tell me?Me being bitchy and not slutty..its fine.But havoc??WTH??Come to think of it...I'm turned out quite alrite..the fact that I come frm a dysfunctional family!!haha..

Friday ritual...after work,buy movie tickets for the guys.Meet up at lido,have a puff.Make our down to Coffee CLub and chilled till its movie time.Everybody squeeze into the car...head out to our next supper place.Chill and laugh and bitch!And my favourite part...annoy the guys!!Especially Marcus!!haha..I'm the only bitch..so i guess it gives me the right to bitch at Marcus!!ahahaha...the easy and fun target!!haha..So yeah...I always look forward to the weekend.Its the time where I get to meet kwok too!hehe...So yeah,unfortunately,there was another car incident as soon as we reach Al-Ameen.Marcus..acting all so manly broke the car handle.So we spent like 2 hours finding a solution to the problem.John was pissed at the situation.Never have I seen him so pissed.Barry had sinus again...used up all the tissues and MArcus...just not in the mood.Sigh...All they need a good massage!!wahahaha..

So yeah...anyways...my mum thought i had a boyfren.She said,"If you hv a boyfren,tell me.At least I know you're with a MAN!!"===WAT the hell??
I swear i wanted to laugh at that instant... was dying to tell her not MAN but MEN!!(Hello?Isn't 3 guys with you better than 1?3 to protect me at nite!!wahahaha)
So yeah..anyways,she said no more midnite show for me and if i wanted to..must bring my bro along.Wat the fuck!!Because..the idea of me spending my time with 3 Chinese guys freaks her out...not exactly freak her out but..I guess she is just afraid of wat people might say.Get wat I mean?Ah well...she doesn't know that these guys have been there for me all these time..and not only them..but other guys too.And all are not MALAY!!TAke note...only a handful.So yeah...my point being...other colours in my personal experience are good.Come on la Mummy...they are harmless la.I watched them go thru puberty ya knw...we've known each other long already.So isn't it better I'm with 3 frens than with a boyfren in the middle of the nite?Make sense mother??Go think la...if I were with my boyfren..you be more worried!!Yr brain will start to think other wise...and there and then u wished that I were with my frens!!hahah...k hera..better stop talking to urself.

Guys..as usual la...we had fun slacking together...just like any other day!
Lets just keep our fingers crossed that everything for John is good!!
Hugs!!

In the lab nw..EFMA test in 15mins time...ain't listening to tutorial nw.Instead I'm typin an entry here..DUH!!Bored!

I was at Starfucks today...all so dreamy on wat life is gonna be like for me in the near future.Things now...all is looking up.I like...carefree...never been happier.I can even smile and look at that idiot...knowing that I'm so much better and deserve better.So thank you boy!!Thank you so much!!I'm a stronger person now and I've learnt.I'm now on my way to succumbing to a greater life.My frens...I love them.They bring joy to my life...with their silliness,retardedness...spastic acts!!haha..

Thanks!!

Okay...the way I see it...the MISSING bloggers are back updating their site.Good for you pple.Keep the updates coming in.We dun have time for each other anymore.We leading our own respective lives...and it seems that most are happy.Thats good.YOu lead urs...and I shall lead mine.All is good...never been happier.Interesting conversations with some names I rather not mention...didnt know that life is really complicated at times.But we learn from each other dun we?I've met my neighbour..Brian.Cool dude.And yeah..my fav. neighbour John...so far the best and ON neighbour and fren.Now I know..if I'm hungry...who to call and accompany me!!haha...if we're bored and the guys doesn't want to go out...we can always take a walk in the park together!!haha John...my only neighbour that I can always count on.haha

Okay..honestly..I've been busy with work and sch.And I dun have time for some of you guys out there.We may bump into each other..but we dun have time to talk.Sorry if I haven been there for you like I used to.

Sam,
Sorry it took me way way way too long to get you the CD.Its not that I cant be bothered...neither did I forget.I just got a job recently and yeah..of course I'll get ur CD with my hard earned cash instead of using my mum's dough to replace the cd which was my fault.But girl,if you want to get it yourself..its okay.I'll just pay you back or do something abt it..get a voucher maybe.Wateva it is..I'll still return the gesture...my ways of apologizing to u.I guess you pretty much know that I like to drag and drag things for far too long.And maybe you waited far too long for me till you cannot take it.Because I know u miss ur cd.My apologies.Hope you're doin good yourself.I lost ur mobile number also.I lost my sim card.So pardon me if I have not been returning ur messages.
And Sam...I mean it okay...I will return the gesture soon.Dunno when but hope its soon.Take care ya!

Just woke up...still very sleepy!I can never get enough sleep!hmph..ah well..nothing much I can do.Got home really late last nite..like 530 am.After work,met up with the guys,John,Barz,Kwok,Marc,Moo and a few other people and Shu Feng,Marc's schmate.Chilled at Coffee club before our 0015 movie at Lido.Went to watch..M.Night Shyamalan.."The Village".A movie i kinda regretted paying $8.50 for.I almost fell asleep.haha..but a twist in story line.Show kinda reminded me of "The Crucible".So yeah...had such a good time.Love to go into details but kinda lazy to type now.All I wanna do...is to slp..just like the guys.I bet John is slping like a baby now,Barry like a pig,Kwok too..Marc must be smiling in his slp..Moo slping like cow.

Oh yeah...I've yet to meet my neighbour,Brian...who so happens to be John's childhood fren!haha..so yeah..probably gonna chill with him one of these days la.

Marc...you talk non stop.You kept on asking and telling..pondering..aren't you ever tired?Your mouth like chicken backside!But I like!You're ma playa!haha

I got a new job at far east!!haha...was walking around Far East yesterday so yeah..kinda asked ard la.So anyway,I'm like an hour away from the start of my job.Am late...oh shit.Was at Al-Ameen with the guys.Kwok was frm camp.He looks really weird in his uniform.haha..botak and all!!haha..and yeah Marcus was ard too..inm fact most of the time,the whole nite,I was talking to him abt girls!!Oh boy...he got me set to thinking abt men too!!Ish!!So yeah...will be back later at nite to update you guys.

Au revoir!!