lost within my own reality

Hear Ye Hear Ye!!I made a huge decision(yeah rite)...one I'm not sure if I will regret.But it will grow.I did it all on impulse...I was feeling bored.Needed something new in my lifestyle.Kinda happy I guess...I look like a chinadoll now..with ma BANGS!!haha...Hm...wat were you guys thinking huh??LOL

Yeap..I have BANGS!!Yes..I knw I have a round face..but fcuk it..I just need to do something la.haha..And so I asked my bro to cut my fringe!Hm..not too bad I guess..but who cares rite?

I've got BANGS!!

Ah well...the guys gotta be a man one day and its Barry's turn now.He's gonna be a better man!!He'll be booking in tomorrow morning.Sigh...Oh gawdy...gonna miss his spiky hair!!Tmr..botak!!Aiyah...gonna miss Barry's.."Ah boh..".."Hera!!"...aiyah..gonna miss him la!!lol

Hm...

Tmr busy day
Driving Prac..final Stage 3
Nervous abt the praticals..Can't remember how to vertical park.
Will I pass tmr prac?
Aiyah...gonna be a chauffeur soon.
Which modules debarred?
How to tell mother?
In nocturnal bliss...
Gotta study BF test..got to!!
Come to realized I'm kinda selfish..
forgot how life is beautiful with kind pple
Aiyah..mind block..
FCUK!
Gonna watch white chicks nw...nite peps!

Thx for reading!

Remember the ANEH season?It still continues and expanding!!It has expanded to MATS!!I'm not kidding!!I had 2 Mats...literally Mats...asking for my number at my work place.

Mat No 1:Came in with 2 frens.Pretended that he was going to get a bag.Said,since I'm such a professional at bags..I would knw wat kind of bag he was looking for.LAME!!Anyway...the tall ugly one left.Left the fat and skinny mats.Hung ard the shop for bloody long time.My gay boss saved me when he asked me to go over and help him.

Blah blah blah..my colleague told me that the 2 idiot wanted my number.I laughed.Over at the big shop..while serving customer,Fat mat came in and said;

Fat mat:Uhm..fuck.Not goin to waste time.Actually my fren wants ur number!

Me:Sorry..no.Not interest.

Mat No.2:I noticed 2 Mats kept passing my shop for no bloody reason.One of them was freaking weird.Was dressed in a TAPERED blue jeans which had white patches with pink polo shirt.Oh gawdy...wondered wat got into him!!Bloody fashion disaster.He so need to be arrested man!!Anyway...my gut feeling tells me they wanted my number la...haha

So yeah..while I was zipping up one of the bags..they finally had the courage to come into my shop.haha..And the fat one,the fren..said

Fat Mat NO.2:My fren actually wants your number."

Me:NO!!(Waving my hand rite in front of his face)

Fat MAt NO.2:Eh!She said NO!!Can leave this place!!

SO yeah...basically..the above dialogue was translated.They...being typical MATS had lousy ENGLISH vocab to start off with..so yeah..too bad!!And I realized something thru this experience...
They always make the fat ones ask for the girl's number!!Why??

After work...I finally got to meet Baby...the other aneh!Pretty cute la...bugga is one walking comic.lol..SO yeah..I met Baby,Shaven and RIshi...They are turned out to be cute ,pretty darn good looking anehs!!lol..Each have their own character...ahahaha...I think I am attracted to anehs!!LOL

A new fetish?I dunno...but I've been told so by Barry,Marc...oh gawdy...I demand in the change of season SOON!!!!

WOMAD 2004...So fun that we were way UP THERE!!With the beats of...

Wicked Aura Batucada!!Wicked BEATS!!

The Temple of Sound

The Fat Belly Dances...hehe

Daara J...Oh gawdy..dancing to their music was MADNESS!!

Lastly...Talvin Singh..Chill out music!

The WOMAD BELO GANG...thats me in my MARGI GRAS Costume!!hehe

We girls just wanna have fun!!

And so did the 2 girls behind me!!They were dancing like mad la..I thought I make "PEACE" with them!lol

HM..WOMAD..its all abt the WOmen and how the WOmen make the men go MAD!haha..k..lame!

Thats Hanis on the left and the King of Belo..Jai!MY 2 buddies...belo buddies!!

The crowd at WOMAD on the last day..last performance.Everyone was just chilling and enjoying wats left for the day!*Taken during the Gala Performance of Talvin Singh.

Oklah...Aftter all the WOMAD madness...we're like..."DOWN THERE"

Especially Jai...he's getting horny!!

Alrite people...wanna see more pics..go to *Captured Moments*!!
For nw...its TOODLES!!hehe..I look damn sexy rite...lol...*pukes*

Alrite...Jai Belo has emailed me the Womad PIcs!!!Finally!!Can't wait to post it in here.Meanwhile...I gotta transfer the pics to my host server and then it will be up and ready for you pple to see!!hehe..Ah well...round up for the last week.Been really sick for the whole week...since wednesday!!Had high fever..flu...headache...hate!!

Okay..I just like to say that I am totally fine with gays,lesbians or watever there is la.But having to know intimate details of these lives..it icks me out!!Seriously...would you like to read one saying that he wanna fuck the other thru the asshole?Oh gawdy..no...!!But..I've read of such..and it kinda got me thinking..these people are still human beings who wants to be loved and love!!Though..yeah..they're confused or so they claim not to be..about their sexuality..but still...They are people with feelings.SO if guys hate gays and lesbians or anything alike..pls...dun go to this blog.If you're interest in wat goes on in these people's mind..for ur sheer pleasure..visit the site below!!
http://aradianwitch.blogspot.com

I am not here to discriminate this person...

Been sick for 3 days now.Wicked flu,headache and fever.I woke up with a high fever today...39 deg.Oh gawdy...I've never had fever that high before in my life.My whole body aches and the headache is a killer.STayed on my bed the whole day and watched 2 movies on my lappy.Thank god for the lappy...or else I wouldn't know wat to do in my room besides reading la.Asked my dad to buy for me lunch...which I've never asked before for a very long time.haha..I even had my mother to call my dad to buy lunch..only to be told.."You stay the same house!Go ask yourself.You guys are terrible!!"haha..Ah well...so I asked my dad to buy lunch for me la.haha..Hm..I should hv got Rishi to buy me lunch..haha..since he offered!!wahahaha..such a sweety la he.haha

Not sure if I am well enough to go to Boom Boom Room tmr.Sigh..and kinda tight with cash too...cause I didn't work this whole week.If not my projects..its the wicked illness thats stoping me from earning my bucks!!Oh gawdy..I think I overspent this week."Stop shopping!!!"

But seriously...these are all wants...not needs!!Madness...

Okay boys and girls!!I'm gonna continue my 5 leftover practicals really really soon!Can't wait for my TP too..because my mummy just bought a car.Which...I'm not too happy about it though.I'm happy about having a car..just the type of car.She decided to get a KIA CAREN..MPV.Yeah..so wat if its an MPV...I just dun like KIA!!I just dun!!So the fact that she decided to buy a KIA..I was kinda upset la.I just dun like KIA!!Oh gawdy..and MPVs are family cars!I dun like...yeah..though the purpose of buying was so that we as a family can go out together..but hello!!Once I get my licence..who be the one driving huh?ME of course...but an MPV?Its just weird!The car is too big..I'll have phobia parking man!Oh GAWDY!!

I told my mum,"Fine..get a KIA CAREN if you want.But I rather have the OPEL Meriva!If you're gonna get Caren..I want sports rim and leather seats!I want it black and make it look sporty...so it wont look like a family car!"

My mum:"No problem!!"

Now I'm thinking.."Am I good or wat?At making demands." hehe

Ah well..I guess I should be grateful that we've got a car now.I should be content with it!!And shouldn't be selfish...afterall..with the MPV..we could bring my granny out and I..the soon to be the new "BABU" of the dysfunctional family..will have the chance to drive my granny to the market every Sunday morning!!Urgh...

::Till then..yes I know..you guys have said it this so many times."Get your licence first!!!"

Sometimes...we tend to question ourselves on the decision we've made.Did we make the right decision?And at the back of our minds, we question on our own principles..wat we believe in,what we want,what we feel..etc..but at the end of the day,all these will lead to only one question."What do we want out of this?"

Pondering and questioning yourself on the decision you've made will not change the present situation you're in.It means you haven't face it yet!You'll still be in the same state you're in before and not moving.Yes,it is difficult..but who says life isn't?Take a step forward and breathe the fresh air.Leave the stale air behind you and never turn back to smell the stale air that has once choked your lungs.Keep moving..dun look back.The only time you'll look back is when you're over it and able to reflect on it with a smile and positive thought.But when you might ask.Well...you'll know..your heart will know.Dun rush this..only when you're ready.

Be tough.Be strong.You'll get thru this difficult phase you're in.Perserverence...thats the key!

::Gals...take care of your hearts!Love you!

Feel So Good
by Mase
Album
: Harlem World
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You ready Mase?
Party people
In the place to be (Uh huh)
It's about that time
For us to (Yeah, uh huh)
Yo, what you know about goin' out
Head west, red Lex, TV's all up in the headrest
Try and live it up
Ride true, a bigger truck
Peeps all glittered up
Stick up can, they go what?
Jig wit it cuz ship crisp, split it all
Ho's ride, get your nut 'till I can't get it up
I'm a big man, give this man room
I'd a hit everything, from Cancun to Grant's tomb
Why you standin' on the wall?
Hand on your balls
Lighting up drugs always fightin' in the club
I'm the reason they made the dress code
They figure I wouldn't wild when I'm in my french clothes
Dress as I suppose, from my neck to my toes
Neck full of gold, baguettes in my Rolls
Wreck shows, collect those, extra O's
Buy the E, get a key, to the Lex to hold
East, West, every state, come on, bury the hate
Millions, the only thing we in a hurry to make
Are the friend that act's friend in a Lex or a Benz
Let's begin, bring this BS to an end
Come on
[1] - Bad, bad, bad, bad boy
You make me feel so good
You know you make me feel so good
You know you make me feel so good
Bad, bad, bad, bad boy
I wouldn't change you if I could
I wouldn't change you if I could
I wouldn't change you if I could
Ah ah
You can't understand we be Waikiki
Sippin' DP to the TV, look greedy
Little kids see me, way out in DC
With a Z3, chrome VB's, they wanna be me
Nigga's talkin' shit they ought to quit
I'm fortunate they don't see a fourth what I get
And those be the same ones walkin' while I whip
Just stylishing cars cuz they all true Nig'
So while you daydream my Mercedes gleam
And I deal with ho's that pose in Maybeline
One time you had it all I ain't mad at ya'll
Now give me the catalog, I'll show you how daddy bought
Six cars and power to fire big stars
Sit up, CEO style, smokin' on cigars, nigga
It's like ya'll be talkin' funny
I don't understand language of people with short money
Come on
[Repeat 1]
Ah ah
Do Mase got the ladies?
Do Puff drive Mercedes?
Take hits from the 80's?
But do it sound so crazy?
Well me personally, It's nothin' personal
I do what work for me, you do what work for you
And I dress with what I was blessed with
Never been arrested for nothin' domestic
And I chill the way you met me
With a jet ski attached to a SE
Smoke my Nestle, no mad rap-ass cat
Where my check be?
Problem with ya'll I say it directly
Went from hard to sweet, starved to eat
From no hoes at shows to menage in suites
Now I be the cat that be hard to meet
Gettin' head from girls
That used to hardly speak
Come on
[Repeat 1 until fade]
Mase
Harlem World
Bad Boy
Goodfellaz baby
Yeah
And we won't stop
Cuz we can't stop
Mason Betha
Yeah
Owwwww, come on

High,,not so high...not so low..but still high.I got tummy ache..I think i wanna slp and off to bed.Phuture was great.Barry is deaf..and so am i but not as much as barry.
GOod nite..

Work was tiring...I still meed more slp.I've concluded that my boss could be gay.He showed off his feminine side today.He had PMS i think.Wasn't in a good mood...nagged and stuff..which made our(colleagues n me) moral low.But heck..just doin it for my pay.Uhm...went out with Jai,hanis and mel...oh and noneh too.Went for sheesha at Arab St...had dinner there as well after work.Today isn't like any other Friday.Didn't meet up with the guys...they played tennis in the evening.Think they are all hooked at it.Its all Barry's fault.haha..anyways..it's FI's birthday next week.Have yet to settle his chalet.I'm organizing and planning his 21st birthday party.Can't wait.

Matin will be back next next Monday..miss my puss!haha...I think I'm gonna treat him to Boom Boom Room before he goes back to KL.Hopefully..he's gonna stay till the weekend.Oh yeah...was not so pleased with SG Idols results.I think Nana should have got into the top 9 instead of the Constipated Jerry.HIs singing sucks!!But am glad that Fique got to the finals.Wishing him all the best.Oh yeah..found out that the Malay dude who will be in the wild card next week is ma fren's fren.hehe..hm...FBI..intro?hehe..

Alrite..gtg nw.I need slp.

Its the Aneh season I should say.Why?Cause I've been talking to 2 aneh lately.haha..all I can conclude abt aneh is that they're horny drinkers!!wahahaha...k...not discriminating aneh..I dun hv a racial discrimination book also.haha...yeah..but anehs are funny dudes la.But they're just so not my type of guy.Anehs..well most of them are out to prove their manhood...hm..I guess most guys are la.Anyway..the season is back...where all the anehs are coming to me.So freaky...I hate the aneh season.haha..but some of the anehs are good looking...just like the 2 anehs.haha..k...I might have a thing for anehs...haha...oops!!No..Not the smell!!Its a turn off!!!haha

Oh yeah...I have a thing for chinese guys that can speak fluent Malay..haha...just found out actually.Was watching "Road Feast"...anyway..I dunno the guy's name la.Was it JIn??Not sure..but...on the episode about 'tongkat ali'..the way asked this malay uncle for tongkat ali...its just damn sexy la.haha..."Abang..tongkat ali ada?".Hm...plus the fact that he is cute..and maybe he was asking for tongkat ali.wahahaha...Could I say I was turned on?hehehe..CENSORED DUDE!!

If you're wondering wat tongkat ali is...well its some kind of herb i think..which helps a man to boost his...uhm...manhood...sexuality!!haha...A natural viagra!!keke

Carol:I dun understand that theory of urs..abt the pple change.Explain pls.

Its been a long and lazy Wednesday.Felt sleepy still even after 13 hours of sleep.Took a 2 hr nap ard 4 plus.Woke up..laze ard..surf the net...wasting my precious time.Had EFMA proj to do..but was so lazy to get started.But its done now.I've just finished doing my French Assignment which was due 2 wks back.It was easy to do actually..but I'm just all too lazy to get started.I think rite now...I dun have the momentum to study yet.I think I need to set my plans straight.Considering to do a timetable for myself.Gonna see if it works...I seriously MUST stop slacking ard..dun wanna stay for another extra semester...its just enuff.

Gonna catch 'Man on Fire' and 'Raising Helen' soon.Looking for kakis to go with me.

Oh yeah..the BIG nose and BIG butt Rishi..is kinda annoying.NOw now..who is this new aneh you might ask?Well..he's a new found fren..whom I just got to know..and turned out to be my fren's fren..in both poly and same soccer team.S'pore is such a small island!!haha..Why is he annoying?Kept asking me to go supper with him or meet up.I mean..."come on Rish..I just spoke to you once..chatted online twice!!Are you mad?"

You guys BETTER catch SG IDOL later at nite!!PLEASE VOTE FOR TAUFIK!!Bonafide Fique..he's the man!!Gals,guys..butches and all alike..FIQUE has got amazing voice!!He can melt any girl's heart with his god blessed vocal cords!!And even the guys too..I heard him sang live many times..even in his voice greeting msg!!haha...trust me!!He's the idol you want to represent the pathetic music SG industry!!haha..but still..TAUFIK is the man la!!So
PLEASE PLEASE vote for him aite!!He may be dark and not so handsome..but heck!!His voice will do it all!So vote for FIQUE aite...and he'll do the rest!!

**VOTE FOR TAUFIK**IN**SG IDOL**

Can't wait for SG Idol!!!Argh..suspense is killing me!!Argh...*pls let Fique get into TOP 10*

::In case you dunno wat the hell is BOnafide.Its a hip hop grp that has made their name in the hip hop underground scene.If you're into hip hop and attends gigs ard SG..you'll knw who Bonafide is.There's so many bands/grp that are actually pretty good..but the fact is still there!!Singaporean will not buy SG made albums..except for those who sold their albums overseas and made a name overseas...and less well known in their own country!!Pathetic!!

Singaporean ought to give support to their fellow countrymen.K..i'll go into detail abt this next time!

Au revoir!

Fi...used to be so busy with his hp.Its annoying..it bugs me."Hello!!I'm here..we're suppose to catch up..!"

This is me..really annoyed because he ain't paying attention to me then.

But now...

Its so much better ever since he's ph kena cut off.No way to contact fi but when we do meet up...he pays attention to me!!Look at my happy happy delighted face!!wahahaha

OK!!I admit!I'm bored!!

Didn't slp the whole nite..was busy entertainin FFC and doin my BF proj.leaving in a few hrs time..haven had any slp..will slp thruout the journey.haha

take care and hv a gd weekend

Wats up with all the small kids carrying VON DUCTH??It bugs me each time I see these kids carryings Von Dutch bag!!It gets on my nerves.Every move I make..every turn I make..I see Von Ducth!!Who the hell is Von Dutch?Who brought Von Dutch in this fashion disaster??ARgh...I find it annoying.Von Dutch T-shirts...Von Dutch bags...hm..I wonder wats else that has
Von Dutch labelled on it.Its like...Von Dutch is taking over Singapore kids slowly..one by one!!Argh!!Its just so annoying la!!

But I can't blame them...these kids need to go thru the "fashion" phase just like we did.The Kinki's days..Fred Perry days...Criss Cross days...haha..man..come to think of it..these were many fashion disasters back in the old days!!wahahaha

Alrite...am off to Genting tmr morning.A little excited to go..gonna shop in KL and Genting.Heard there's a mall at Genting.haha..hopefully..the clothes over at Genting not like those bukit bukit clothings!!wahahaha..On the otherhand...am pretty excited about the free fall ride at the amusement.Been a long time since I went up to Genting..so I guess there's alot of changes!!Oh...cant wait!!!